2 WEEKS ON

I have created other blogspots but i am unable to access them.....So therefore I will start this one and close the others in time...
The 22nd Feburary of this year I lost my very best friend in the world...She has been my companion, friend,life line in many cases over the last 13 and a half years...And now two weeks later I am without her to follow me, keep me company and sleep right the beside me in my bedroom...She was the best little 4 legged friend a person could ever want to have..The most kindest, sweet hearted little girl, who just didnt have a bad bone in her body...She was born on the 22nd September 1996 in Lucknow ( near Orange ) I was going thru the toughest time of my life and the kids and I just needed someone to put some sparkle into our lives...We heard a voice on the radio who had a liter of puppies who needed homes...We jumped in the car and headed of and there was this darling little ball of rusty coloured fluff playing under a rose bush...That was her...Trixie but we renamed her Mitzi...She came home with us that afternoon just 6 - 7 weeks old.Mid November 1996 Mitzi became one of us..Coming everywhere we went..Mainly to nan and pops and she would walk right in up the hallway and find the yellow tennis ball....That was her favourite pasttime and we had to throw it for her or she would continue to tap you on the leg until you did...
She has always been there for my four children and never once crawled or bit anyone...That just was not her...She almost smiled at us...She was beginning to get slower as the years went by and I noticed she hasnt hearing the best...and her eye sight was clouding over...I cant bring myself to visit the vet as I am so afraid I guess...I get the most horrible sick feeling when I am faced with vets and doctors...
I got Phill to take her to the vet one Saturday when I was at work..She has a heart murmur...the vet told Phill and I had already know that, she has had that all her life... But she seem to be loosing so much weight I was worried...It was my birthday and I had the day off work so I asked my mum to come to another vet as the one we had taken her too just didnt give me any real answers.Off we went and they were much the same in answers...They advised me to try and feed her food for her liver as the blood tests revealed a small problem with her liver...I tried that nut she just would not eat..Mitzi was always a good eater and she only got good food,....Dog food wasnt one of her favourite foods..
13 days later after I nursed her at home, staying with her as much as I could with working all day..I took her to mums each day that I was gone and she didnt improve..I guess I was waiting for a miracle.. as I do beleive in miracles....It didnt come.....It was a Sunday night at about 2am and I had walked out with her to the back yard for a wee and she collasped on the stones in the garden..I raced in and got her bed , she climbed in and I spent the rest iof the night trying to make the hardest decision in my life and that was to put my darling to sleep so she didnt have to suffer...I still hate myself for making that decision but for Mitzi it was the best.......
...I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH MY DARLING MITZI...
My life will never be the same but thank you for the 13 and a half years you loved me...xxx